31 weeks:) 9 to go!!!!!

I'm 31 weeks today:) though last time we went to the doctor, he was measuring 32 weeks at 29 weeks...so maybe when we go back the 28th, she'll bump up his due date:) it'd be around Jan 7th if she does! The nursery has been started, I just bought the wallpaper border for his room- all monkeys! Mom is helping me with the room. And, I am happy to announce in a few short weeks i will be quitting my job:)

ITS A BOY!!!!

Yep! Logan Alexander it is:) We were very happy when we found out, and of course- wouldn't you know- I ended up with the child who wants the world to know what he is as soon as the nurse turned the ultrasound on! LOL. It was funny, she asked if we wanted to know, of course we said yes, and she said Good, cause there's your sons private areas right there! Legs spread opened showing mommy and daddy exactly what they wanted to see. Jerry didn't stop smiling until after the appointments. Mom and Dad went with us and waited for us to come out to know what it was, then we were treated to lunch where Jerry finally saw the "funny" side of my dad. Sidenote- Chinese people speak Chinese! Dad's going Si Si-(spanish) to the lady the whole time...Jerrys laughing all through dinner- oh and btw- dad thought it was a boy when we found out we were pregnant- and dad's apparently never been wrong- Anyways- that day came and gone- now making plans for the nursery- which is getting monkeys put in because lately, yeah- I like them...especially for a boy:) green, brown, blue and monkeys! That works! Still have quite a few things to get done- and next appointment the dr will probably make me take the glucose test:( have not heard good things about that test- hopefully I pass it so I won't have to take it anymore. Irons a little low which is normal- so she prescribed hamburger meat and peanut butter as supplements...I can definitely handle that! Growing even bigger in the tummy area- finally started taking pictures at about 20 weeks(when we found out) now Im 22 weeks, feeling great- but hard to believe I have 18 weeks left- and they're gonna go by way too quickly!

Who would've Thought?!

Well, last time I blogged, I was saying kids were not in mine and Jerry's immediate future. Be careful what you say- I found out less than a month after I wrote my last blog, that I was pregnant. However, the way we found out was NOT the way any woman wants to find out. I had been having sharp pains in my stomach for a few weeks. Started about a week after I had last blogged, they were excruciating. I was on the floor in the kitchen in pain while on the phone with my mom one time, it only lasted for a minute or two, but its like nothing relieved it. I would wake up with the pain, I couldn't eat much or anything. I finally went to the doctor because I couldn't handle it anymore, and she took blood and ran some tests, and said she would call when the results came in. I looked at her and asked her, please don't tell me it's just a trapped gas bubble or constipation pains when that test comes back- she said she doesn't think either one of those were it, but she was hoping it was that simple. Two days passed and finally Friday, she called me, told me I needed to come in to review my tests. Knowing that wasn't good, and Jerry still being at work, I explained that I would rather hear it over the phone than to be face to face with whatever problem she found. She hesitated, then proceeded to tell me that my blood test came back with a rather high reading on the HCG levels- not knowing at all what that meant, I asked her to explain what that was. She said that was the level that tells her about pregnancies. Yes, I was pregnant. I panicked, but not as bad as when she said that having pains like I was having was not a good sign when you are pregnant, and began to tell me that I could possibly be having an ectopic pregnancy.That sent me through the roof. I told her I would be in as soon as possible and hung up. First thing first, I hesitated calling my mom. I didn't want her to worry, but when you rely on her for everything, she's that first person, So i called her- she didn't seem too upset, just kind of worried for her daughter. She agreed to meet me at the doctors office and help me figure out what had to be done. Next call was Jerry- which took me quite a few minutes to dial because he was still at work and I didn't know how he would handle this- I managed to call him and tell him- he said ok, and hung up. Quick and painless. Until he got off work and called me and mom. I think he was scared, too. We finally get there, she's does more testing- I explain I wasn't having any more pains- hadn't for a couple days now, and when she does the pelvic exam she finally smiles and says well, you are pregnant- and I don't think it's ectopic. All I could do was smile. Timing was and is not perfect- but, like mom said- Its unplanned NOT unwanted----So after discussing and coming to the conclusion that she would be telling dad that day and then Jerry and I will announce it to them together in a few days, I went home to find, not a scared, nervous boyfriend, but a happy one whos laughing with our roommates(who are also pregnant) already planning the wedding if we should have one of each. Fast-Forward to today-----
 I'm 17 weeks, baby's great! Heartbeat stays in the 150s, Jerry's getting anxious for it to be here- and to find out what it is September 6th. We are tired of calling the baby peanut- He's actually the one who picked the names! :) When we are laying down to go to sleep- his hand should just be permanetly attached to my belly- it's there constantly, trying to find the baby or to at least feel "peanut" move. Right now I am the only one who can feel the baby, and it feels very funny! Also, "peanut" has found a punching bag in my belly- my bladder. I swear, somebody should invent a steel plate or something to go over the bladder when you become pregnant! Cravings- pretty much anything right now- I love sour food and taco bell- however the spicy food does not like me:( I'm still tired pretty much all the time, but I do get my bursts of energy. Everyone's getting really excited for this baby to be here- we still have 5 months- which seems like a long time, but I know it will go by so quickly! BTW- names are boy-Logan Alexander and girl-Rhylea (riley) Lynne. This baby is going to be so loved by mommy and daddy and I cannot wait to finally hold him/her.

Looking through the past, Living during the present, Looking towards the future

Have you ever just sat back and looked at the decisions you have made in life? I did that just the other day, and being just shy of 20 years old, things are almost EXACTLY where I wanted them to be when I wrote my "dreams" down in a pink journal my gramma gave me for my 16th birthday. Only thing is, college is on hold and I am not married yet... which is fine. On the other hand, I wrote that by my 20th birthday, I wanted to have a job, be out of my parent's house and indepedent, find  wonderful man that keeps me on my toes, and let loose a little more. I have completed all of those. Well, not quite there on the independent stuff...it'll get there. Though I never would have imagined I would have found a man like Jerry.(I'm going to be mushy for a minute-bear with me...lol)- Though we have our fights and our differences, I have never met anyone who can make me smile just by looking at me. He is definitely my rock. Ever since I was 3-4 years old, I wanted to go on Supermarket Sweeps(old game show that came on before Jeopardy-don't judge me!) and find a Hubband....Well,the show got cancelled by the time I was 9, so that was a bust. However, I wasn't giving up on the hubband...I do believe I have found him, but with him, I have to be patient. He is not quite ready to become a married man. SideNote-I believe marriage, to most men, is the number one scariest thing they will ever do. It's a committment not easily broken. I, too, am not quite ready to get married, but knowing me, if he asked tomorrow, we all know what my answer would be! And kids!!!! At 16, I wanted 8 kids(was I on crack?) Named Abigail Melissa, Madelyn Rose, Andrew Brynn, Matthew James, Ezekial Alexander, Josephine Marie, Evan Michael, and Jessica Kate. Now- It's 3 kids(maybe) named Mason Cole(per Jerry), Erin Lynne and Jessalyn Lavonne(jerry's gma who raised him). Though I know I may have more than one son, or no sons...I have particularily become fond on the name Kyrian...... I often wonder what it would be like to wake up every day, with Jerry as my husband and kids jumping on the bed waking mommy and daddy up...that's my dream right now. I dream the same dream almost every night....I wake up, make breakfast, sit at the table in the dining room and look around, there's Jerry at the head of the table, 2 small kids sitting at the table, (i cant ever tell what they are because it's a blur) and I'm pregnant with our third. Cryxis joined the dream when we got him. It's like my subconscious sees my everyday life and then mixes it in with the reality I someday want. It's weird, but it is the most amazing dream I have ever dreamed. I cannot wait for it to come true. All in good time.... Presently, Jerry and I have only talked about kids a handful of times. We both agree nows not the best time. Though we do want kids eventually...Cryxis will do for now! I just thought I would put that little bit up here..still looking through the rest

our newest addition:)

Meet our new baby boy:)

 CRYXIS

It's Been Awhile

Well, I guess I've been slacking on my blogging...lol. Not much has really changed here other than the fact that we've moved....YUP....I got the MOST STUBBORN man to move out of his grandfathers house! We moved in with a couple of friends(rent is expensive!) and got away from some personal things that were causing a LOT of problems. Jerry got certified as a Correctional Officer in January and this past month, he was scheduled to start working midnight shift(12-8) at the prison. It's a little harder to adjust to this shift because when we would normally be doing something(fishing, shooting pool or just lounging around) we are sleeping. Also, we have a new addition to the family:) A PUPPY! His name is Krixis and he's a chocolate long-haired dauchsund. Pics will be up shortly, due to my ipod self-destructing and my camera not working half the time, I cannot take or post pictures to anything! But....that's it for now...I guess I'll post again later when something else happens.....

OCTOBER!!!

ok, started new job...went from cashier to sales associate...A LOT BETTER! More hours actually:) Jerry's doing amazing with his training for C.O. Getting up at 5am Monday thru Thursday with him and then making sure he has everything for that day(few times he's had to come back and get things..even left his keys in the house door.) It hasn't been really dull here lately. We still live with his grandfather, but I am ready to move into a place of our own(financially not possible right now). We've gotten to where we rarely see eachother...I'm off Wed/Thursdays and he's off Fri-Sun. I see him between 5am-6am, but it's not really quality time as due to the facts he's showering and getting ready for work(I make lunches!) and then if I'm working, I won't get off until 11 at night when he gets off at 5:30, so he's asleep by the time I get home...I do love Wednesday and Thursday nights...even with the HALO playing.*video game jerry LOVES* That's our time...we usually stay at the house and just lounge around. Honestly, I do miss him being unemployed once in a while...NOT the no income part...the fact that I only worked maybe 16 hours a week, so there were like 4-5 days where we could do whatever we wanted(with limited funds) and not worry bout being up at 5 the next morning or having clothes ready and washed for work. Life has definitely knocked on the door and awakened us! I am thankful everyday that God has given Jerry this amazing job! I am a nervous person with the Prison because he's always talking about Shanks and riots, which scare me...however I, too have my application floating around the North Region of florida looking to become a C.O., however, after my probation and my 2 yrs is up I would more than likely go to the police force or private investigation. I have been shown careness and concern from Jerry because when I did tell him that I had applied for those positions of UCI and RMC, he told me that even though he did it, he doesnt feel comfortable with me working there...he said I couldn't handle it, which I was stubborn and told him "I'll prove it" he said, the way the men would treat you out there (inmates and other C.O.'s) he doesn't want to see me get hurt...so I pretty much dropped the idea. Mainly, because I love Jerry and I know he was only saying that because he's seen it and he knows me and how much I CAN handle. Still didn't stop me from trying ONE MORE TIME! If they call me, I will proceed, if not, God and Jerry have decided it's not what's best for me. ANYWAYS, Halloween is around the corner! I'm gonna either be a fairy or a nurse....got Jerry dressing up! We have a party we are going to the 30th, so I guess he's only doing it for that:) Guess I'll quit typing...fingers are cramping!