OCTOBER!!!

ok, started new job...went from cashier to sales associate...A LOT BETTER! More hours actually:) Jerry's doing amazing with his training for C.O. Getting up at 5am Monday thru Thursday with him and then making sure he has everything for that day(few times he's had to come back and get things..even left his keys in the house door.) It hasn't been really dull here lately. We still live with his grandfather, but I am ready to move into a place of our own(financially not possible right now). We've gotten to where we rarely see eachother...I'm off Wed/Thursdays and he's off Fri-Sun. I see him between 5am-6am, but it's not really quality time as due to the facts he's showering and getting ready for work(I make lunches!) and then if I'm working, I won't get off until 11 at night when he gets off at 5:30, so he's asleep by the time I get home...I do love Wednesday and Thursday nights...even with the HALO playing.*video game jerry LOVES* That's our time...we usually stay at the house and just lounge around. Honestly, I do miss him being unemployed once in a while...NOT the no income part...the fact that I only worked maybe 16 hours a week, so there were like 4-5 days where we could do whatever we wanted(with limited funds) and not worry bout being up at 5 the next morning or having clothes ready and washed for work. Life has definitely knocked on the door and awakened us! I am thankful everyday that God has given Jerry this amazing job! I am a nervous person with the Prison because he's always talking about Shanks and riots, which scare me...however I, too have my application floating around the North Region of florida looking to become a C.O., however, after my probation and my 2 yrs is up I would more than likely go to the police force or private investigation. I have been shown careness and concern from Jerry because when I did tell him that I had applied for those positions of UCI and RMC, he told me that even though he did it, he doesnt feel comfortable with me working there...he said I couldn't handle it, which I was stubborn and told him "I'll prove it" he said, the way the men would treat you out there (inmates and other C.O.'s) he doesn't want to see me get hurt...so I pretty much dropped the idea. Mainly, because I love Jerry and I know he was only saying that because he's seen it and he knows me and how much I CAN handle. Still didn't stop me from trying ONE MORE TIME! If they call me, I will proceed, if not, God and Jerry have decided it's not what's best for me. ANYWAYS, Halloween is around the corner! I'm gonna either be a fairy or a nurse....got Jerry dressing up! We have a party we are going to the 30th, so I guess he's only doing it for that:) Guess I'll quit typing...fingers are cramping!

August 2010

Okay... finally have a new job... a cashier at Walmart... not exactly what I WANTED to do, but hey... I'm not complaining... got a little bit of a pay cut, but working 30 hours a week is definitely making up for it!!! 9 months with Jerry.... he starts his new job as a correctional officer on the 20th---we are both very excited... we both have new and better jobs, better pay and we will soon be able to pay bills on our own! That's been my goal. I thank mom and dad for being there when i need them and the very FEW times that I don't. I don't know what I would do without them:) Finally cooking a few meals here and there for me and Jerry... Made pizza, ham and au gratin potatoes, ham and pineapple on rice, and nachos...(all different nights) the only mishap i had was the oven cooks just a little bit faster than moms oven so when I went by what moms oven did, I ended up burning the pizza... he ate it... but complained just a little bit. Visiting Gramma and Papa has been delayed yet again due to the fact that I'm on a 90 day probation at work, and I don't really know when my days off are yet... we might just go down for a day sometime near in the future...hopefully BEFORE christmas, but I'm not promising ANYTHING!

June 20th

Happy Father's Day!!!
Well, day started off rocky. I'm not going to lie about that. Woke up about 11am. Which hasn't happened in a while. Usually getting up between 7-9am. Lounged around for a bit with Jerry and I get a text from mom saying Lunch is on it's way. So Jerry and I start getting ready to leave, however, we had a few delays. Needless to say, I was very frustrated and not a happy person when I walked in the door to my parents house, who have already eaten father's day lunch together and dad already on the couch watching movies. Things really change when you move out. You miss so much. You forget that things don't wait on you anymore. You have your life, they have theirs. Still trying to get over all of that. Anyways, living with Jerry is good. We do fight sometimes, not as often as we did before we took a "break". As painful as that was, it was the best thing for us...7 months and going strong. we don't even count that as a break. Still looking for another job...though I am very lazy on that. I really hate my job but i'm one of those people who wants a job to land on their lap. I know it's not going to happen though:(
Oh well, I am planning on going to Alabama in August. First trip i've gone on since April. (I know I've missed a lot) Hopefully going to drag Jerry with me so we can take his car(I love it)(better gas mileage than my truck.) and he can meet the rest of my Alabama family.

random thoughts...

I have caught myself wondering alot lately about what direction my life is going in. Since I was 8 years old, I've wanted to be a teacher, but now that I am in school and pursuing that career choice, I constantly find myself thinking about other choices... Like for instance, even though some people don't believe I can do it, I would like to further myself into Correctional Officer... I've sent in an application, however they have not gotten back to me yet. I truly believe that if this is meant to be, it'll happen. I'm not going to push it. I've also changed my major to Early Childhood Development instead of Elementary Education...which really is just an age difference in teaching.. I will be teaching Pre-K to Kindergarden instead of 1-5th grade. I've moved back home due to some financial situations, however I am not giving up. I will end up moving back out, just not right now. I currently still work at Hell Dixie... not going to change for awhile, because everywhere that I have looked or applied to just aren't hiring right now:( Jerry and I are also still dating... Five months April 11th:) I'm not going to lie, it has been rough. I think in some areas of our relationship we grew stronger while other areas failed. We still have a communication problem, but only to the extent that we don't pay attention to eachother. Mainly me, he says something and I'm off in LALA land...He's a pretty amazing guy. he's still currently looking for a job, but I have faith in him and cannot wait to see him succeed in whatever he does.

new year... old habits.

well, same old stuff has been happening with me. Aside from the fact im in my second semester of school-yippee?... Jerry and I have been dating for a little over 3 months now, and we are happy. Both of us have started shooting pool on a regular bases, although he does it a lot longer than i do because after a while, i get tired of losing to him:) Schools pretty hectic. I have two online classes that I sometimes have to FORCE myself to do because when I get online, i turn into my aunt Kate and find something else I want to do and then lose all focus on what i need to do. I'm still working(barely)... I average about 16 hours a week. some of it's my fault, but its because I'm trying to put school first. I make do with what money I get. I don't have but like one or two bills at the moment, and as long as i can keep from overdrafting or eating out we are good. Jerry has actually been around alot more. He introduced me to fishing(even though I kinda grew up around it.) and I have somewhat fallen in love with it. I even caught a bigger fish than him one day... couldn't get the smile off my face- he kept looking at me and laughing because that fish scared me and i barely got him on the bank. I have my own fishing pole(pink) and surprised him by getting my fishing license one day... Lately it seems anything I do involves Jerry. Fishing and shooting pool never really crossed my mind unless I was at Gramma and Papas house. Now pool is almost a nightly thing and fishing(when its warmer out) is a good way to spend a couple of hours alone. Spring break is in a couple of weeks and I don't really know what I want to do yet... but knowing me, it will involve dragging jerry somewhere(he doesn't seem to mind...lol) anyways... I've currently lost track of what I was really going to type... besides the fact that my hair is red again(not on purpose)... looks alright, but it was a LONG process to get it from the ugly purple it had gone to.