Fakers, Liars, Cheaters, 2-faced people...

I don't like bullcrap in my chef salad- so stop giving it to me. Leave your drama for your mama- whom I am NOT!
If you lie, all you're doing is getting people NOT to trust you when you finally tell the truth. I'm tired of listening to all the drama that everyone has. Listen, GET OVER IT! IF you are done with somebody... be done with them. Don't let them stick you back into their web of lies. I'm done with it. If I am done with somebody- I ain't gonna listen to their crap. Granted, I'll be nice, because I am a nice person, but don't get in my face telling me off and crap- I ain't gonna listen to it. If I'm done with you- I AM DONE- DON'T BOTHER ME WITH YOUR CRAP ANY LONGER!

Oh, and by the way---TYLER AND I ARE NOT DATING!

BULLYING

I'm getting really sick of being bullied.

Just Blogging:)

So we went to church this morning, very good sermon. It was about how when we are saved, we are to spread "seeds of God" out to the nonbelievers. I was sincerely moved by this sermon. Every time I go to this church I leave with the feeling that I need to be doing more in my walk with Christ. He tells me to do alot of things, but I never do them-Which I need to start. My parents and I are okay on the clothing situation. I'm wearing nicer clothes. I actually wore a new outfit to church this morning and looked HOTTT! If I do say so myself. I've been a little sad because my favorite show "Psych" went off the air for their season break. Season 4 should be out this summer!!!! Rachel has softball practice tomorrow- and pretty much the only reason I go to her practices is to hang out with Tyler! He's the bomb. Also, my new favorite song is THE CLIMB by Miley Cyrus. Eveybody needs to know this song, it's helping me with alot of things!

BLAH BLAH BLAH

Rachel stayed with Jon and Krystle last night so that she could watch J.R. today- so I pretty much did whatever. First, Jake and I watched our weekly episode of PSYCH-(must watch), then Emily and I decided to go to Bell's Outlet and look at their stuff- I got a very pretty white dress with numerous blue "dots" on it- and a black cardigan-typed sweater to go with it. On our way home, we stopped at McDonalds and got some food(a must!) and then we picked Tyler up from his house and hung out at ours for the day. Rachel came home about 8ish. Tyler and I played WII for a little bit and pretty much sat outside talking. We have church tomorrow, but I'm not wearing the dress because it will be too cold outside. I applied to a couple more jobs last night and today. Cross your fingers and pray that I get this job. It's perfect for me- A BOOKSTORE!

FINDING A JOB!!!

This is the hardest thing to do! When I was younger, I saw "Now Hiring" signs all over the place... now--- nobody wants to hire anybody- especially if they're under 18. I've filled out quite a few applications- I have one more to fill out Tuesday- (Hardee's)- Tyler said that I could work there- it'd be easy for me....(except for the 4am-noon shift)... So, I'll try that one out. I've even gone so far as to filling an application out at a high-class(VERY EXPENSIVE) clothing store- which I know for a fact I won't get, mainly because the manager sounded very NORTHERN type- and when I said 'y'all"- she kinda looked at me weird- plus(this will make my parents happy) it didn't help that I was dressed in jeans, tennis shoes, a t-shirt and my hair just kinda brushed and out of my face. OH well, At least I'm trying. I have some new clothes... which surprisingly, I like... It's very hard for my mom and me to agree on clothes... she's telling me that I need to start dressing like an adult, but I don't want to give up my "kid" clothes. I love wearing Jeans and T-Shirts. Maybe if I didn't wear jeans EVERYDAY, she wouldn't be so upset. So I guess my belated new years resolution is to wear a better variety of clothing... possibly more colors than white, black, gray and brown? Big step for me. I only know how to match denim.(goes with everything!)

Back Home

As glad as I am to be back home, I'm starting to miss the Littles! Kate and I played numerous games, which I beat her 99% of the time.(did you know when you get pregnant, you lose brain cells?) Garry and I talked most of the time, and the younger kids and I played outside and watched cartoons. I miss little Aidan. Although when he woke me up this morning at 6:30- I could have done without that-though which if I had known Kate had just put him back in bed, I would have just stayed in bed. he and I were attached to eachother pretty tight. It's alot quieter in my house. With us all being teenagers, we go off and do our own things and don't really ask eachother to do anything. (maybe mom should have another kid?)
I had fun at Universal Tuesday with Kate and Garry. We rode a bunch of simulation rides- I liked Spiderman the best( though Simpsons came at a close second). 1Fish2fish was okay... it would have been better if Garry hadn't gotten me wet;) I guess I'll stop typing.... I'm so tired, I can't think straight.

Family Time

So I've been staying with my Aunt and Uncle and their 4 kids for the past few days, and I feel just as home here as I do at my home. We all do the same things, except for the fact they range from 1-12, but we play games and talk about everything. I've even tried new foods while I am down here. I usually don't do that, but if you're trying to be respectful towards others, you eat what they make. Today, Kate made Chicken Salad Wraps for lunch, which I have never had, tried it, and liked it. Then there were Hot Dogs for dinner, which on the grill, are my absolute favorite. The only things that are done differently than what I know is, we eat fruit here with meals and the kids are outside almost 24/7. I'm going to Universal tomorrow with Kate and Garry and I know I'm going to have a good time. I have mixed feelings about tomorrow, only because this will be my last day in Orlando. I will be happy about going home, and I will have a lot of memories, even from a few days to last me a lifetime:)

STRESS

You know how parents and other adults say teens don't get stressed? They're wrong. Between school, looking for a job, and trying to finish everything I have to do before April 21st, I'm pretty much going insane. I'm constantly tired and can't really function. Usually, I would talk to somebody, but when I did that, it didn't work. So, I'm pretty good at keeping it all in and not letting others know about my stress levels until absolutely necessary, but it's becoming a lot harder, mainly because I tell my Mom and Aunt Kate everything.(ALWAYS HAVE) It's just mentally exhausting. Maybe Shopping tomorrow and a theme park with calm me down?:)

Vacation(sort of)

So my parents are on Vacation and I'm at my aunts house for a few days. I'm usually pretty okay without my parents until nighttime. Even though they're in their room or playing on the computer, we're still together and not having them around the dinner table(my favorite thing) makes it a little hard. However, I am having fun. It's never a dull moment at the Little house. Either someones screaming, crying, watching tv or trying to get your attention. I love it. It's something I'm looking forward to when I have kids. I'm not used to a whole lot of noise, but I'm adjusting. I have a headache right now, but it's okay.
I do miss my parents, but I know they're having fun and besides, they only leave us maybe twice a year. And since I'm graduating and don't really know if a University away from my home will accept me, I need to grasp the concept of not having Mommy and Daddy all day.
I also miss my siblings. EVEN THE FIGHTING. Right now, Rachel and I would probably be fighting over who gets the tv, jake's asking to play a game and Emily would be either at the computer or at my door telling me she's bored.
So I guess I'll stop blogging, because I could go for hours about what we all do.
Until later-
Live Life/Go Big or Go Home

Fighting

My sister Rachel and I fight more than anybody I know, and most of the time it's over stupid stuff. But how do I get her to quit acting like she's the boss of me? I don't resort to violence, meaning I don't punch, slap or hit my sister. I try to use big words to confuse her. Yet, everyday, usually about the time I wake up, there she is, yelling, fussing, or complaining that I'm not doing anything. I do things, it's just things that she can't see because she's always too fussy. Like today for instance, I kind of slept in until 9:30 10 o'clock this morning. VERY RARE lately. She had a fit. She also inflicted upon herself to clean the whole downstairs and upstairs (not including our bedrooms) so that she could go hang out with friends tonight. However, when she asked me to make tea- which 9 times out of 10, I usually do, I refused- thinking, "why do I have to listen to her?" Even though it doesn't matter if I were to fight her or not (which I did) I still ended up making tea because the referree(mom) put a stop to things. So before matters got worse, I went and made tea, kinda cleaned up the dining room and kitchen and then told mom that I did all of that and would be in my room if SHE needed me. Even then, I wasn't done with the bickering. I am Jake and Emily's English teacher/tutor. Any problem in English they come to me. And I had a double dose of it today. They are both very different when it comes to their school. Emily, all I have to do is show it to her about 500 times, and then she'll get it. Jake is a constant battle. He will get an attitude, fuss and bang his head on the table before he even asks for help. And it's the same questions over and over again. He gets the hang of it, but then he doesn't check his work, and then when I check it and find all of those very little mistakes that change the whole sentence pattern(i personally hate those) it pisses him off and I'm in for a bumpy ride.

Today

So we go to a new church (not really new, we've been going since Sept/October.) and we have just gotten back a little while ago. Needless to say, unless we move, I will continue this church for as long as I can. It has everything I need and want in a church.
Rachel and I tried out Sunday School this morning and I loved it. I was pretty quiet, but I'm like that around people until I get to know them, then they can't get me to shut up.
During the morning service, Bro. Derek and Bro. Brett did a Christian Rap about tithing to the music of Apple Bottom Jeans(LOW). And our sermon today was about tithing. Mainly how we give money to everybody EXCEPT God. Tithe(1o%) of your money. I'm always happy and ready for more when I leave this church. They are so uplifting, you can't help but laugh, smile, and say AMEN there. Even the choir is AMAZING. They sing as if there's no tomorrow. I'm seriously thinking about joining- among other things. I don't think I've ever been this pumped about going to Church, I used to groan and moan about getting up early on Sunday, granted I did that today, until I saw God working through all these amazing people who just want us to commit our lives to God.

GOD

Who is God?
Atheists believe that he's just another idol certain people worship, others believe he or she is a spirit.
In truth, He/She is everything. the air we breathe, the food we eat, the things we see and hear, that's all God. We were made in the limited version of him/her... meaning, that when Jesus came to earth- which was God in human form, he decided to take the limited version, which is what we can't do. We can't wave our hands and all diseases are gone, or calm the seas with 3 words, or even make the blind see or the dumb talk. God could and still can. The way I see it, after reading the Bible and The Shack, I've learned that yes, Jesus healed people, but it wasn't really Jesus. What was it? It was God. Jesus totally surrendered to God, which gave him the power to use him. Through God, Jesus healed all the people. And not only that. You know the Trinity? The three-in-one? Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Father(GOD) Son(JESUS) and HOLY SPIRIT(what you feel with God being with you and in you).
God is not simply man, he is not simply woman. He is both. No, he is not a transvestite. He is the Voice of Truth. Everything he says is true. He also takes on forms of which can be male or female depending on who he is showing the one true God to.
And when he judges us- do you think it's easy for him? It's not easy for Him to decide which of his Children go to heaven or not.
We are separated from God, not by the government, our parents, or even Satan. We are separated from him by independence.
By being independent and wanting to do things our way, we have done away with people telling us what to do- including God. Even the best of Followers have been known to want to be independent in their relationship with God.
When something good happens in our lives, we praise him. When something bad happens, we rebuke him. God doesn't want bad things to happen, but sometimes they have to in order for people to see Him... He loves us no matter what we do. When we let him into our hearts and let him take control, we see things in a new way. Not in an independent way, but in the way God sees it. All we have to do is listen to God and let Him be in charge.

Best Friends

So, you know when people get married, they say they married their best friend? Why is that? My best friend is Tyler, who's a guy(if you didn't catch that) and I'm not going to marry him. Does that mean he's going to get replaced? Are we just friends until we find something bigger and better out there in the "real world"? See, I'm confused. I don't understand it. When will I understand it? Mom and Dad said they are best friends, but what about their other friends, who have been called "best friends"- I'm probably rambling about nothing, but I just didn't understand what it meant.

Excitement

I'm really excited.
Which is really hard for me to be. I usually brace myself for the pitfall of everything I do, so if you wonder why I'm always in a sour mood, there you go.
I'm excited because I'm going to my Aunt Katie's House for a week. Granted, I'll miss my parents and siblings, but being nearly 18, I need to start getting over that. (somewhat) I mean, I can't live with my parents forever.
Anyway, I'm going to have so much fun! She pretty much has it all planned, I just have to bring my smilin' face(: Whoa, didn't think that I could be this excited! I'm really good at not showing it though. My mom will read this and think "she's not that excited", when in fact, I hide it, because I act like a fool already, when I get really excited, I say things that aren't coherent to human ears.
Man, I can't wait!

Very First Blog

Okay,

So my mom and aunt have a blog, and against my mothers wishes to let her have something of her own;), I have made my own. Am I going to keep up with it everyday? Probably not. So things are going good with my life. I'm a senior, hopefully graduating in June and Going to college in the fall. I've started going to a new church that I absolutely love! I'm still having trouble with my parents about certain things, but that's normal, I guess. I'm trying out new things- sort of. More or less, I'm kind of cutting out junkfood(HAHA), less television, being outside more, and of course fighting with my siblings- however if you know my sister Rachel, you definitely know that's going to take all that I have. I'm currently thinking about what I'm going to do about college tuition, seeing as to I can't find a job and it's not completely set that I'm getting that 75% paid scholarship from Bright Futures. I really want to be a teacher. That's been my goal for about 3-4 years. I'm set on that. Teaching kids is what I'm good at, and I know that I have a promising future in it. But we'll see. Maybe God will direct me into another field that I've yet to think about yet.........