11/20/2009

Guess I should get everybody caught up on what's going on since I never call, text, email or see anybody anymore...
Work's going great and school, well, is school. I'll be done with my first semester in a couple of weeks so I get a little break for the holidays:) Also, I have a boyfriend whose name is Jerry. We didn't know it when we met, but he actually was friends with Jon and Krystle and we had met previously before, but didn't really care back then. We've been together(officially) since 11/11, but we "met" the Saturday before. He's a great guy, who I'm sure you all will like. Mom loves him, Dad, not so much... but that's ok. Trucks running fine. Takes 2/3 of my paycheck to fill it up now:( Haven't really been home much anymore as I am always finding more ways to get myself into trouble;) not really.... just been working, at school, or hanging with friends:)
Will write more later.

I guess it's been awhile.

I guess it's been a little while since I last blogged.
Not much has been going on, just school, work, school, work, school, and work. I did get sick a few days ago and missed a day or two of school. Took a few tests, started hanging out with some friends and figured out that putting gas in a truck is actually more expensive than i thought. oh well, all part of growing up.

Getting Used To It

Well, School started Monday. I slept a total of 30 minutes to an hour the night before because of nerves. Slept a little bit longer Tuesday and slept about 5 hours last night. It's been going pretty good. However things have flipflopped. Math is now one of my best classes. I'm taking PreAlgebra(collegeprepclass), English, History to 1877, and Music Appreciation. I end the school day at 12pm, but then I'm either on my way home to get homework done and relax or to get homework done and then go to work. I now understand why my parents are tired all the time. My day usually started around 9-10am and then ended about 2-3am. Now it starts between 4:30-5:30 in the morning and ends hopefully around 11pm.(NOT including weekends!) My busiest days of school are Tuesdays and Thursdays because I have 3 classes from 8am-12pm and those are the main days that I work. I'm very fortunate to have all my classes pretty close to eachother. They are right next to eachother, and two are in the same building! Out of all this new stuff, some other things happened. I started hanging out with people from work(helps that we go to the same college:) and we all went to a club last Thursday. I also got a new truck. It's a Nissan Frontier and I've only had it for two days. Dad decided to make some mistakes on the title, so we had to wait another day.
Thats all thats been happening so far- will try to post more later.

New Post

Things have been going very well for me these past few weeks. I've started managing my money a little better and started branching myself out a little more. I've made more money because I've gotten more hours at work, even though I am still looking for either a second job or a higher paying job closer to school. School starts in just a couple weeks. I'm not nervous about it at all. I'm more excited than anything. I'm also back in physical therapy, but for my shoulder this time. I think I am only going to be in it for a week or so because I honestly believe there is nothing wrong with my shoulder. I had my pictures done, so if anyone wants a new photo, just let me know. That's where I am NOT like my mom. If you want a picture of me, you have to tell me, otherwise I'm not going to send you one. Other than that, things are good...

catching up

I figured I'd blog real quick before work, since I haven't blogged in about a month. Things are going good. Might have a second job lined up in a couple of days. Going to Alabam with the family for Christophers first birthday! All the money that was in my bank account, has now officially disappeared due to books for school. I will be very busy and home bound, mainly for the next 6 months because I'm back in physical therapy. I went to the doctor yesterday and found out that I have a shoulder sprain. Apparantly, when I was playing the wii, I popped my arm out of socket. Then it went back into socket, but it never felt right. (but i really didn't know I had hurt my arm. I thought i was exercising.) The doctor said that my tendons or muscles one, are tight, and that somehow resulted in overworking my shoulder and spraining it. I think. Mom wasn't with me at the doctors office, so most of what she said was not paid attention to, because i was thinking that mom was going to kill me when I told her I had to go back to physical therapy. So, anyway, now mom has 2 kids she's putting in physical therapy. I will just have to add that to the 5 days of school, 6-7 days of working 2 jobs, and still trying to have fun. Guess everyone has to go through it sometime.
I just hate the fact that the ones who don't want to grow up(me) get shoved into the world full force and the ones who want to grow up(rachel) get little doses at a time.

Catching Up/ Buy Used, Save the Difference.

So things have been pretty hectic since I last blogged. Plus, I'm also lazy. Let's see, I turned 18, graduated high school, got baptized, started looking for a second job, got into Santa Fe College, took the Computerized Placement Test for college, set up orientation, and started working on a budget. Right now it's one of my days off and I'm just chillin at the house.(by myself). The drywall stuff is almost done. I'm actually cooking tonight! I'm going to the grocery store in a little bit and getting things to make spaghetti.(mainly the only REAL thing I know how to cook:) I'm working all weekend(except for Sunday). I have to deal with the fourth of July crowd at work... but I love it when it's busy, because the time goes by so fast. I have 18 hours on my paycheck this week. Though it's not as much as I used to have(stupid economic crisis crap) I'm just thankful I have a job. Like I said, I'm currently looking into a second job. Though, like I said, with this Economic Crisis Crap, all the jobs are currently slashing their current employees hours, and aren't taking any new employees. Thankfully, I've already got a taste of how much college is going to cost me a year, and if I live at home, never eat, drive, or pretty much breath for the next four years... I should be in okay shape!
Anyway, Like I said, I'm putting myself on a budget. I've made well over >)#*^ dollars in the past few months, and if you'll look in my closet, you'll see where it went.(Thanks Mom and Aunt KAte for that wonderful Gene)But however, I'm concerned that I may go into debt for school which is why I'm cutting that down. I'm also doing thrifty things now. There are nice consignment shops if I get the urge to shop. buy used save the difference.

Blogging

Well, My birthday has come and gone. 18 really feels no different that 17, except for the fact that when an infomercial comes on and says "you must be 18 or older to call", I can call... though I probably won't. Works becoming easier, actually got complimented by our Front-End Manager saying that in the 2 months that I've been working, I've done exceptionally well. I'm graduating June 20th!!! Can't wait. Don't really know what to do with the spare time that school used to take up. So, I've been on the computer alot. It seems that if I stay home, I don't spend all of my paycheck, so I'm trying to stay home a lot.

~Things Are Happening~

So, as of today, I am officially done with school!!!!! I'm taking my last tests today. I will be receiving my diploma in June, and I am really excited. I've also gotten a new cousin! Gage Christian was born Tuesday, and from the pictures I've seen, he's a very cute baby. I guess I will see him sometime, though I'm not sure when. Work's been going pretty good. Made some new friends, who will probably be out at our house pretty soon. So, that would be more people for mom to feed. The grocery bill will definetly get higher since a few of those friends are guys.
I've also developed a new liking for a show called Supernatural. Mom and Dad bought a few of the seasons and all three of us girls have fallen in love with it. I'm not your average girl though, I mean, don't get me wrong, the guys in the show are hott!, but I also like the guns that they use. Plus its about ghosts, demons, and a bunch of other paranormal type things. I've also started to like the show House. A little different than the shows I usually watch, but that's okay. It's really funny. by the way- I'm gonna say it again! I'm DONE WITH HIGHSCHOOL!

Just Around The Corner~

Well, My 18Th birthday and Graduation are just around the corner. I still have some schoolwork left to do, but it isn't really that much and can be done within two weeks. I'm still employed, but might have to look into adding a second job to the plate. College is more expensive than I had thought and don't think even a scholarship will help that much. I have to go to the college sometime this week and find out what else they need me to do besides send the SAT scores and financial stuff to them. I know I have to take the CPT test in August, but that's when I'm signing up for classes.
Anyway- for my VERY LAST English project, I was supposed to write a speech. Well, since I'm not really that good at speaking in front of people and really didn't want to do exactly what they wanted me to, I decided to write a speech here telling everyone how I feel about graduation and taking the next step in life:

To be honest, I'm terrified. I don't think anything has scared me like becoming an adult and facing the world. I hate the fact that I'm this one little minnow in this humongous sea. I've started getting nervous of how life "on my own" will be like. I've heard my parents and others that I seek advice from talk about financial problems and how even pinching pennies sometimes doesn't work. I've always strived for "perfection" in things that I do. (aside from school) If I didn't get it right the first time, I would get frustrated and never end up finishing it. I can't do that anymore. I'm not just trying to figure out how a toy works or what a word is in a certain book. If I decide to quit anything in my life as an adult, I could lose alot. I know that I have a lot of people backing me up and helping me get back up if I fall, and I think that's what making me stable right now. I know that no matter what mistakes I make, they'll be there with a helping hand.

fun fun fun!!!

Been missing for about a week or so.... went to Disney with my family. Mom and Dad said they would always take me before I turned 18... well, they did it with about 25 days to spare. Saw Mickey and Minnie, Donald, Mary Poppins, Buzz and Woody, the green soldiers from Toy Story, the Incredibles, and my FAVORITES!!! CHIP AND DALE!!!!!! They were the only characters that I was concerned about seeing! Rode Tower of Terror(twice and will never do it again), Rock and Roller Coaster(Aerosmith) again, twice, and would definitely do that one again. Went to Epcot and saw the fireworks show. Walked around the world. Loved Norway the best!!! And, to top everything off, I rode the Nemo ride at epcot! that was one of my favorite things to do. On a bad note- my phone went through the washer, so no more phone!

Not Much Happening Here.

I'm almost done with school. I only have 1-2 paces in each subject. I'm actually going to be done by Mid-May, which is early enough to send it to the school and get my diploma by June! Also, I'm retaking the SAT May 2nd, so the scores will actually come in about the same time that I finish school. Besides that, work is going excellent. I pretty much understand all that I have to do. I'm going to be gone most of the day tomorrow. I have to go to work and get my paycheck, go to the vet and set things up for scooby, drop my paycheck at the bank, come home, and then Rachel has a softball game out of town tomorrow. Not really anything else going on.

Just typing random things

Praise the Lord, For He has Risen. Tomorrow is Easter. Love the holiday... hate the rush of people at Winn Dixie! Just when I'd get my lane cleared and start organizing things, another 5-6 people would come in with at least half a cart full. When I left, almost the whole parking lot was full! Rachel is in Atlanta with Gramma, Papa, Garry, Shelby and Bryce. They went to visit Connie and Kirk and see Kirks last basketball game.(He's skyhawk) Found out i had to take the SAT's again, apparantly, my scoring was wrong. I'll be done with school in a few weeks. Possibly before I'm 18!

New Week

It was a busy weekend. Chris, Tammie and CJ came down for the weekend, JR had his first B'Day party, Easter Pics got done, and helped at the ballfield. For some reason, I had the whole weekend off of work. Usually I work Saturdays, but God does work in mysterious ways and got me out of work for the whole time family was here. My sister and Mom have already posted pics of them so I won't. Besides, I don't know how. I got my scores for my SAT this morning, and if the scoring goes like mom said, I made a 1323. If that's correct, I am eligible to get the 75% paid bright futures scholarship:) I have to work today, plus I get another paycheck! I have to call the school in a few minutes and see where I get my cap and gown, go to Gainesville tomorrow and get my registration form for college, find out when dollar day is at our bowling alley, and get Emily and take her to see the Hannah Montana movie April 10th!(I actually want to see this too.) Rachel has a softball game next Tuesday, If I'm off I'm going to see her play!
Gotta go- OFF TO CALL THE SCHOOL!

The beginning of the WEEKEND

I worked today from 12pm to 7pm... Pretty busy, especially since it's the first of the month. Got home to find out that my family ate my FAVORITE meal without me.(NACHOS) Opened up my first bank account yesterday. Mom's my co-person. AND NO SHE DOESN'T HAVE A CARD TO GET IN!!! That would be like giving a robber all the money and saying Here, I don't need it. I don't work again until Tuesday, which I think means that I only get about 6-7 hours on my paycheck this week. I'm having fun at this job, even though I get frustrated sometimes. It's only because I want the customers out of my lane pretty fast. Everyone decides to come through my lane. But, Like I said, I like it, and I think I'm going to be there awhile. School's going pretty good. I have about 20 days left on the calendar for my senior year. Which, by the way, I have my class ring!!! It's a very pretty ring. It has December's birth stone in there. That's my favorite birth stone. It's a dark blue!

newish haircut.

If I forgot to mention like 2 weeks ago, i got a haircut. It's about shoulder-length and layered with side bangs. Not the greatest pic to reveal it, but people say I look better with this hairstyle. So here you go.

Rain

It's raining. It started raining about 5:30 this afternoon. Rachel and I were running the concession stand tonight for the Major's baseball game. It would drizzle, pour, stop and repeat. It did this the whole time we were out there. Got back to the regular field where our 12 and under softball team were still at it... both of our teams lost, but their spirits were high because they got to play in the rain. Cleaned everything up at the field, I cleaned out both dugouts and got completely soaked while doing it. I didn't realize that the dugouts were flooded until it was too late. Rachel and I got home and changed. I tried getting my hours for work today, I had them switch my hours around on Friday because of Rachel's game, which I was just informed WAS CANCELLED! So, Winn-Dixie is supposed to call me with my schedule.(or that's what Ms. Rachel said.) I know I'm working Saturday though.( I just forgot those hours.) I have my nephews first BDAY party to go to Sunday afternoon, I can't believe he's almost a year old! He's been trying to get stable enough to walk, but I hope he can put that off for just a little bit longer.

Growing Up

Work has been going good. I've been busy with school and work. Haven't really done anything outside of that. Went to church this morning. Had a pretty good sermon, but I don't really remember much of it. I think I was mentally asleep during it. We had a pretty bad storm last night, took out the satellite and then the power kept coming on and off until about 7 this morning. So I pretty much haven't slept in 3 days. I'm going to try to go to sleep early tonight. I have to work again tomorrow, though not until 4. Rachel has a softball game tomorrow, that I'm missing. I'm going to try to go to her game Friday- I don't know what my schedule is though. Going to get off now and watch some tv or something. I don't know what to do now. I'm really feeling tired.

Life is Confusing

Well,
Tyler and I are back to speaking to eachother. Turns out that I contridicted myself into a hole with him. We're working through it. Just to ease my mind, Tyler and I are just friends. I know that sometimes what I type or say makes the assumption that we are, but we aren't.
Anyways,
I'm not in training anymore at work. Which means, more hours. Starting with working from 4pm until 10pm Friday, 1-7pm on Saturday and then same hours on Monday as Friday. The cool thing is I finally get paid on Tuesday. I figured(without taxes being taken out) my paycheck should be close to 200 dollars. Again, that's without takes being taken out. I don't really know how much that will be, but I will be getting around 100-150 dollar- which is more than I have now.
School's going better- have about a month left and then I'm done. Around the end of April/beginning of May, I should be done and it should be sent off to the school to be graded, processed and graduated!!!

life happens

Tyler and I aren't speaking to eachother. Actually, Tyler isn't speaking to me. I've tried to talk to him and apologize, but he won't listen or take the time. Here's what happened....
1. I lied(so I'm told)
and 2.- I took a joke WAY too seriously and it could've cost me my friendship.

Rachel was jokingly saying things in the car on the way home. Mom got a little frustrated at one of the things she heard, which I guess sent a ticker off on me thinking that I could be in trouble. So I called tyler, because the thing rachel said did concern him. I didn't know he would take it towards the extreme end of the spectrum. Needless to say, To him, I am a coward and a liar, and I don't know how I got to be the two in his eyes. I never lie, and if I do, I'm bad at it so people detect it before it even comes out of my mouth. I'll admit I am a coward on a few things, but where my friends are concerned, I am not. I'm trying to figure out where I belong, trying to have new friends, graduate high school and be accepted at work- they aren't excuses, it's just that I don't want to be known as the liar or coward.

Work

Today was my first day at Winn-Dixie. It went pretty good. We trained for about an hour and then they set us up with cashiers that helped us with figuring things out while we bagged for them. I worked from 11 to 2 today and had a blast. I was nervous, but as soon as I got the hang of some things, I got rid of that and got to work.
On other things, I've been doing nothing but sleeping, eating, schoolwork and watching t.v.
Tyler hasn't been over as much because, he too, has a job and he works the hours that he usually comes over. Jake and Emily do schoolwork in the daytime, and we're pretty disruptive, so we can't have friends over until after 2- (I think). I have four more weeks worth of school and then I am done until college. Mom and I still haven't gotten my senior pics done, but they will be done soon. My class ring should also be here soon.
I get the test results to my SAT's April 7th. I'll post my score, and whether or not I'm taking it again. I have to get at least a 1270 for my scholarship, so....
Enough for now- blog l8r.

Shopping for Job

So, Mom and I went shopping for the clothes I needed for my job at Winn-Dixie. This is my very first job and I'm really excited. For my job, surprisingly, all my clothes have to be black. Black pants, shoes, socks and belts. I'm not really a fan of black anymore- mainly because I get hot fast. The sad thing about having a job is I'm not going out of town with my family. I have to stay home and work:(

UPDATE!

I got up at 5:30 this morning... got dressed, drove all the way to U.F. (while being in traffic for GATORNATIONALS), got assigned to a place at U.F. that was 3 blocks from where they wanted us all to meet, took the SAT's which was about 5 and a half hours (including breaks), went to taco bell because i was hungry and my attitude wouldn't make it home. I'd end up flipping someone off or getting in a wreck if i didn't eat(that's my story and I'm stickin to it!), came home, talked to mom and dad for a bit, tried callin tyler-dang boy NEVER answers his phone, watched the final disk of Moonlight-Vampire/Human love story series that got cancelled, ate dinner(Sonny's), watched some tv, played a game with Mom, Emily, and Jake. Now I'm just laying in bed on the computer trying to stay up long enough to finish writing, so if I mispell anything, I blame it on fatigue... and you're probably saying, jeez, it was only for today! Well, I probably wouldn't be complaining if I had slept at all the last 3 days. I think my total hours ended up being for 3 days: 6 hours and 27 minutes. I was pretty coherent during the test. I did doze off once, but I woke up to people moving, so I knew it was break time. (Good thing I finished every section with at least 10 minutes to spare everytime. I easily made at least 1300...
enough for now... falling asleep.

Blah

Well, things are still going good here. Finishing up more schoolwork. I'll be done in about 5 weeks. I have to take the SAT this Saturday. (Pray for me) I've been studying for it, and I really understand everything EXCEPT for Math-but that's normal for me. I'm currently in the process of getting a job. They are supposed to call me either today or tomorrow and tell me whether I have the job or not. Things are looking up for me. I'm not sleeping as good as I should, but it's mainly because I have a deadline to get done with school. (April 21st) that way- my school will have at least a month to get my diploma. I'm really excited to finally be getting out of high school, but then that just means that I go to college! yipee!

March 3rd, 2009

Jake and Emily's Birthday is tomorrow. I can't believe they're going to be thirteen. Anyways---- Dad took us to Outback Steakhouse tonight for dinner- it was really good. It was also funny to sit next to Dad while he cracked jokes about anything and everything. Mom and Emily almost killed eachother over the dessert-The Chocolate Thunder. There was nothing left! I guess when you get the EXTREME CHOCOLATE LOVERS something chocolate, there's bound to be nothing left. Rachel and I didn't fight too much today. I think we go through weeks of fighting and then take a few days break. Oh well, at least when we're older, we'll be like Aunt Sara and Aunt Katie. Grandma said they were like me and Rachel and now they are Closer than ever.
Gonna Get off of here and do some schoolwork, clean my room, finish some other chores, Read my daily Proverb, Try calling Tyler again(we've been playing musical voicemail for hours now) and maybe in all of that, I'll sleep. Gotta get up early tomorrow and finish cleaning the house for Jake and Emily's Birthday. Also, gotta pick up my cargo- TYLER....

March 1st, 2009

Sooo,
I finally talked to Mitch! Granted, it was a very quick conversation consisting of Hi and getting to know the basics of eachother... but I got over that hurdle. I also met Shawn, Barrett, and Zach who are in the praise and worship band. Shawn, Tyler, Rachel and I talked for about an hour about random stuff... We went to church tonight and Bro. Derek was getting ordained. He was very excited and nervous.(From what I could tell.) Anyway, This past week has been going by smooth. I have to go to the library tomorrow and get an SAT book. Also, If I keep up my strategy for school, I should be done by April 10th!!! I'm so excited to be so close to GRADUATING! I would really have liked to walk, but it's okay... I guess I'll get over it.

Fakers, Liars, Cheaters, 2-faced people...

I don't like bullcrap in my chef salad- so stop giving it to me. Leave your drama for your mama- whom I am NOT!
If you lie, all you're doing is getting people NOT to trust you when you finally tell the truth. I'm tired of listening to all the drama that everyone has. Listen, GET OVER IT! IF you are done with somebody... be done with them. Don't let them stick you back into their web of lies. I'm done with it. If I am done with somebody- I ain't gonna listen to their crap. Granted, I'll be nice, because I am a nice person, but don't get in my face telling me off and crap- I ain't gonna listen to it. If I'm done with you- I AM DONE- DON'T BOTHER ME WITH YOUR CRAP ANY LONGER!

Oh, and by the way---TYLER AND I ARE NOT DATING!

BULLYING

I'm getting really sick of being bullied.

Just Blogging:)

So we went to church this morning, very good sermon. It was about how when we are saved, we are to spread "seeds of God" out to the nonbelievers. I was sincerely moved by this sermon. Every time I go to this church I leave with the feeling that I need to be doing more in my walk with Christ. He tells me to do alot of things, but I never do them-Which I need to start. My parents and I are okay on the clothing situation. I'm wearing nicer clothes. I actually wore a new outfit to church this morning and looked HOTTT! If I do say so myself. I've been a little sad because my favorite show "Psych" went off the air for their season break. Season 4 should be out this summer!!!! Rachel has softball practice tomorrow- and pretty much the only reason I go to her practices is to hang out with Tyler! He's the bomb. Also, my new favorite song is THE CLIMB by Miley Cyrus. Eveybody needs to know this song, it's helping me with alot of things!

BLAH BLAH BLAH

Rachel stayed with Jon and Krystle last night so that she could watch J.R. today- so I pretty much did whatever. First, Jake and I watched our weekly episode of PSYCH-(must watch), then Emily and I decided to go to Bell's Outlet and look at their stuff- I got a very pretty white dress with numerous blue "dots" on it- and a black cardigan-typed sweater to go with it. On our way home, we stopped at McDonalds and got some food(a must!) and then we picked Tyler up from his house and hung out at ours for the day. Rachel came home about 8ish. Tyler and I played WII for a little bit and pretty much sat outside talking. We have church tomorrow, but I'm not wearing the dress because it will be too cold outside. I applied to a couple more jobs last night and today. Cross your fingers and pray that I get this job. It's perfect for me- A BOOKSTORE!

FINDING A JOB!!!

This is the hardest thing to do! When I was younger, I saw "Now Hiring" signs all over the place... now--- nobody wants to hire anybody- especially if they're under 18. I've filled out quite a few applications- I have one more to fill out Tuesday- (Hardee's)- Tyler said that I could work there- it'd be easy for me....(except for the 4am-noon shift)... So, I'll try that one out. I've even gone so far as to filling an application out at a high-class(VERY EXPENSIVE) clothing store- which I know for a fact I won't get, mainly because the manager sounded very NORTHERN type- and when I said 'y'all"- she kinda looked at me weird- plus(this will make my parents happy) it didn't help that I was dressed in jeans, tennis shoes, a t-shirt and my hair just kinda brushed and out of my face. OH well, At least I'm trying. I have some new clothes... which surprisingly, I like... It's very hard for my mom and me to agree on clothes... she's telling me that I need to start dressing like an adult, but I don't want to give up my "kid" clothes. I love wearing Jeans and T-Shirts. Maybe if I didn't wear jeans EVERYDAY, she wouldn't be so upset. So I guess my belated new years resolution is to wear a better variety of clothing... possibly more colors than white, black, gray and brown? Big step for me. I only know how to match denim.(goes with everything!)

Back Home

As glad as I am to be back home, I'm starting to miss the Littles! Kate and I played numerous games, which I beat her 99% of the time.(did you know when you get pregnant, you lose brain cells?) Garry and I talked most of the time, and the younger kids and I played outside and watched cartoons. I miss little Aidan. Although when he woke me up this morning at 6:30- I could have done without that-though which if I had known Kate had just put him back in bed, I would have just stayed in bed. he and I were attached to eachother pretty tight. It's alot quieter in my house. With us all being teenagers, we go off and do our own things and don't really ask eachother to do anything. (maybe mom should have another kid?)
I had fun at Universal Tuesday with Kate and Garry. We rode a bunch of simulation rides- I liked Spiderman the best( though Simpsons came at a close second). 1Fish2fish was okay... it would have been better if Garry hadn't gotten me wet;) I guess I'll stop typing.... I'm so tired, I can't think straight.

Family Time

So I've been staying with my Aunt and Uncle and their 4 kids for the past few days, and I feel just as home here as I do at my home. We all do the same things, except for the fact they range from 1-12, but we play games and talk about everything. I've even tried new foods while I am down here. I usually don't do that, but if you're trying to be respectful towards others, you eat what they make. Today, Kate made Chicken Salad Wraps for lunch, which I have never had, tried it, and liked it. Then there were Hot Dogs for dinner, which on the grill, are my absolute favorite. The only things that are done differently than what I know is, we eat fruit here with meals and the kids are outside almost 24/7. I'm going to Universal tomorrow with Kate and Garry and I know I'm going to have a good time. I have mixed feelings about tomorrow, only because this will be my last day in Orlando. I will be happy about going home, and I will have a lot of memories, even from a few days to last me a lifetime:)

STRESS

You know how parents and other adults say teens don't get stressed? They're wrong. Between school, looking for a job, and trying to finish everything I have to do before April 21st, I'm pretty much going insane. I'm constantly tired and can't really function. Usually, I would talk to somebody, but when I did that, it didn't work. So, I'm pretty good at keeping it all in and not letting others know about my stress levels until absolutely necessary, but it's becoming a lot harder, mainly because I tell my Mom and Aunt Kate everything.(ALWAYS HAVE) It's just mentally exhausting. Maybe Shopping tomorrow and a theme park with calm me down?:)

Vacation(sort of)

So my parents are on Vacation and I'm at my aunts house for a few days. I'm usually pretty okay without my parents until nighttime. Even though they're in their room or playing on the computer, we're still together and not having them around the dinner table(my favorite thing) makes it a little hard. However, I am having fun. It's never a dull moment at the Little house. Either someones screaming, crying, watching tv or trying to get your attention. I love it. It's something I'm looking forward to when I have kids. I'm not used to a whole lot of noise, but I'm adjusting. I have a headache right now, but it's okay.
I do miss my parents, but I know they're having fun and besides, they only leave us maybe twice a year. And since I'm graduating and don't really know if a University away from my home will accept me, I need to grasp the concept of not having Mommy and Daddy all day.
I also miss my siblings. EVEN THE FIGHTING. Right now, Rachel and I would probably be fighting over who gets the tv, jake's asking to play a game and Emily would be either at the computer or at my door telling me she's bored.
So I guess I'll stop blogging, because I could go for hours about what we all do.
Until later-
Live Life/Go Big or Go Home

Fighting

My sister Rachel and I fight more than anybody I know, and most of the time it's over stupid stuff. But how do I get her to quit acting like she's the boss of me? I don't resort to violence, meaning I don't punch, slap or hit my sister. I try to use big words to confuse her. Yet, everyday, usually about the time I wake up, there she is, yelling, fussing, or complaining that I'm not doing anything. I do things, it's just things that she can't see because she's always too fussy. Like today for instance, I kind of slept in until 9:30 10 o'clock this morning. VERY RARE lately. She had a fit. She also inflicted upon herself to clean the whole downstairs and upstairs (not including our bedrooms) so that she could go hang out with friends tonight. However, when she asked me to make tea- which 9 times out of 10, I usually do, I refused- thinking, "why do I have to listen to her?" Even though it doesn't matter if I were to fight her or not (which I did) I still ended up making tea because the referree(mom) put a stop to things. So before matters got worse, I went and made tea, kinda cleaned up the dining room and kitchen and then told mom that I did all of that and would be in my room if SHE needed me. Even then, I wasn't done with the bickering. I am Jake and Emily's English teacher/tutor. Any problem in English they come to me. And I had a double dose of it today. They are both very different when it comes to their school. Emily, all I have to do is show it to her about 500 times, and then she'll get it. Jake is a constant battle. He will get an attitude, fuss and bang his head on the table before he even asks for help. And it's the same questions over and over again. He gets the hang of it, but then he doesn't check his work, and then when I check it and find all of those very little mistakes that change the whole sentence pattern(i personally hate those) it pisses him off and I'm in for a bumpy ride.

Today

So we go to a new church (not really new, we've been going since Sept/October.) and we have just gotten back a little while ago. Needless to say, unless we move, I will continue this church for as long as I can. It has everything I need and want in a church.
Rachel and I tried out Sunday School this morning and I loved it. I was pretty quiet, but I'm like that around people until I get to know them, then they can't get me to shut up.
During the morning service, Bro. Derek and Bro. Brett did a Christian Rap about tithing to the music of Apple Bottom Jeans(LOW). And our sermon today was about tithing. Mainly how we give money to everybody EXCEPT God. Tithe(1o%) of your money. I'm always happy and ready for more when I leave this church. They are so uplifting, you can't help but laugh, smile, and say AMEN there. Even the choir is AMAZING. They sing as if there's no tomorrow. I'm seriously thinking about joining- among other things. I don't think I've ever been this pumped about going to Church, I used to groan and moan about getting up early on Sunday, granted I did that today, until I saw God working through all these amazing people who just want us to commit our lives to God.

GOD

Who is God?
Atheists believe that he's just another idol certain people worship, others believe he or she is a spirit.
In truth, He/She is everything. the air we breathe, the food we eat, the things we see and hear, that's all God. We were made in the limited version of him/her... meaning, that when Jesus came to earth- which was God in human form, he decided to take the limited version, which is what we can't do. We can't wave our hands and all diseases are gone, or calm the seas with 3 words, or even make the blind see or the dumb talk. God could and still can. The way I see it, after reading the Bible and The Shack, I've learned that yes, Jesus healed people, but it wasn't really Jesus. What was it? It was God. Jesus totally surrendered to God, which gave him the power to use him. Through God, Jesus healed all the people. And not only that. You know the Trinity? The three-in-one? Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Father(GOD) Son(JESUS) and HOLY SPIRIT(what you feel with God being with you and in you).
God is not simply man, he is not simply woman. He is both. No, he is not a transvestite. He is the Voice of Truth. Everything he says is true. He also takes on forms of which can be male or female depending on who he is showing the one true God to.
And when he judges us- do you think it's easy for him? It's not easy for Him to decide which of his Children go to heaven or not.
We are separated from God, not by the government, our parents, or even Satan. We are separated from him by independence.
By being independent and wanting to do things our way, we have done away with people telling us what to do- including God. Even the best of Followers have been known to want to be independent in their relationship with God.
When something good happens in our lives, we praise him. When something bad happens, we rebuke him. God doesn't want bad things to happen, but sometimes they have to in order for people to see Him... He loves us no matter what we do. When we let him into our hearts and let him take control, we see things in a new way. Not in an independent way, but in the way God sees it. All we have to do is listen to God and let Him be in charge.

Best Friends

So, you know when people get married, they say they married their best friend? Why is that? My best friend is Tyler, who's a guy(if you didn't catch that) and I'm not going to marry him. Does that mean he's going to get replaced? Are we just friends until we find something bigger and better out there in the "real world"? See, I'm confused. I don't understand it. When will I understand it? Mom and Dad said they are best friends, but what about their other friends, who have been called "best friends"- I'm probably rambling about nothing, but I just didn't understand what it meant.

Excitement

I'm really excited.
Which is really hard for me to be. I usually brace myself for the pitfall of everything I do, so if you wonder why I'm always in a sour mood, there you go.
I'm excited because I'm going to my Aunt Katie's House for a week. Granted, I'll miss my parents and siblings, but being nearly 18, I need to start getting over that. (somewhat) I mean, I can't live with my parents forever.
Anyway, I'm going to have so much fun! She pretty much has it all planned, I just have to bring my smilin' face(: Whoa, didn't think that I could be this excited! I'm really good at not showing it though. My mom will read this and think "she's not that excited", when in fact, I hide it, because I act like a fool already, when I get really excited, I say things that aren't coherent to human ears.
Man, I can't wait!

Very First Blog

Okay,

So my mom and aunt have a blog, and against my mothers wishes to let her have something of her own;), I have made my own. Am I going to keep up with it everyday? Probably not. So things are going good with my life. I'm a senior, hopefully graduating in June and Going to college in the fall. I've started going to a new church that I absolutely love! I'm still having trouble with my parents about certain things, but that's normal, I guess. I'm trying out new things- sort of. More or less, I'm kind of cutting out junkfood(HAHA), less television, being outside more, and of course fighting with my siblings- however if you know my sister Rachel, you definitely know that's going to take all that I have. I'm currently thinking about what I'm going to do about college tuition, seeing as to I can't find a job and it's not completely set that I'm getting that 75% paid scholarship from Bright Futures. I really want to be a teacher. That's been my goal for about 3-4 years. I'm set on that. Teaching kids is what I'm good at, and I know that I have a promising future in it. But we'll see. Maybe God will direct me into another field that I've yet to think about yet.........